Today someone told me that I should write a book. It made me think about the countless poems that I kept tucked a way in 3 year old notebooks, and then I thought about the blog that I had pretty much abandoned. This year itself, has been one of testing, trials, and reassessment of just how far my own personal relationship with God goes as well as my deliverance from things that I thought that I had long abandoned. I celebrated my 22nd birthday on November 8th and witnessed my 20 yr. old younger brother propose to his girlfriend the same day. I cried for joy at the news and sadness at what I realized was another instance of coming in 2nd place.
I’ve realized my purpose and I’ve also realized the source of great pain in my life. I’ve pressed through the present and reflected on the past. There is so much that I need to work on but yet one person’s comment about how much I’ve helped them and been a light… I thank you if you ever read this blog. I’m not perfect and I’m not spectacular but I’m a fighter and I’ve literally tried my best to live on when times get rough. Some of my widest smiles were during the roughest times of my life at University and spiritually. For those who have stayed with me throughout this journey I say thank you because I write for you and I. This blog is for us. A release and confirmation that we are struggle buddies but we are also able to endure any test that comes at us.
Please pray for me as I pray for you! A little update, I want to start making my blog more inclusive for guys since many of my guy friends and other males have inquired about my blog and I’ve been a little hesitant because I didn’t think that it would be useful for them. I’m going to be working really hard to make this thing more consistent and more spirit led.
Love you guys,