Hey y’all I feel like I’m always in an interesting place when I take long breaks and finally decide to post another blog so I’ll just say that this Christian road has been full of bumps, twist and turns but all in all I know that God will complete the work that He began in me. I can say with full confidence that it will not be because of my own might but rather the grace of God that keeps me from quitting on Him and myself. I’ve felt moments where I didn’t understand why God wouldn’t just use somebody else, let me live a normal life and do things that others are able to do without conviction. All my life I’ve felt different and like I couldn’t truly relate to my peers. I’ve been called “too saved”, “Jesus girl”, and “imbalanced”. But although the above statements could make someone feel insignificant, I can’t help but think about all the things that God has literally shielded me from. I can say with confidence that I am 21 years old and have not experienced the heartache of failed relationships, I live a relatively peaceful life, and have broken a lot of generational curses in my family.
When I was younger I was a planner. If you would’ve asked me what I wanted to be throughout the years I would’ve stayed adamant that I was going to be somebody’s doctor in some capacity (hasn’t changed guys, but that’s beside the point.) I would spend endless nights writing lists and making spreadsheets about the colleges I would go to, my plan A, B, and Z for major choices up until I was to be married, I even mapped out what my life would be like as a married woman and the neighborhood I would live in. But I didn’t truly understand that I was only dust until my strategically mapped out plans failed miserably. When I no longer had my pen, paper, and ambitious dreams but rather tears, lack, and despair, that’s when I was formally introduced to something greater than myself, Elohim. God gave me assurance that what I didn’t know, He was all too familiar with and what I didn’t have, He was more than capable of providing for.
So to that person that feels like you aren’t where you envisioned you would be at this age or at this point in your life, know that God still knows the plans that He has for your life despite what seems like a desert place, disaster, or different than the path of those around you. And for those who know what God told you years, months, or days ago, please remember that He is faithful who promised. Now is not the time to give up but continue to build your foundation on Christ the solid rock. Get in your word, don’t forsake the assembly of the saints, and flee from the very appearance of evil.
Catch y’all on the flip side,